Thought of the day II

那天，和一位朋友在msn聊一聊，他说“看得出你是一个把心思都放在男朋友的女生。。”不出一秒，我马上回答“不是”，因为我很清楚知道我不会只为爱情而 活的人，我绝对不喜欢被爱情绑死。后来我想一想，为什么别人会有这种感觉呢？我想，在面对感情的当儿，我迷失了，我的重心放错了。我该回到最原始的我，不 再拘束，我要做我喜欢做的事。这让我想起中学时的我，当时认识我的人都应该知道小女家教甚严，出门，通电话等等都必须报告，才能通过。相信同学或朋友打电 话来我家有此经验，超过十 点，大致上是找不到我了啦（如果不是我接电话），尤其是男生，幸运者必须回答一道道的审查，不幸者，被我家皇帝警告“你最好小心一点”哈哈，开玩笑!就警 告不能这么“迟”打扰我咯。对于不幸者，借此说声抱歉 ：p
那时也适逢叛逆时期，年少气盛，经常为这些事而和父母关系很疆。我很活跃于课外活动， 高峰时期，每个星期六为红新月会训练，星期天出席其它学校华文学会的活动，又或者是学记的活动。有时就一连几天在外露营。当时父母深怕我的功课会被影响， 所以很多时候都在阻止我参加，但是越阻止，我就越气 愤，越觉得不可理喻，很多时候先斩后奏（儿童不宜，不过现在绝对是好孩子，哈哈）。所以当我拿到第一只手提电话的时候，我是多 么的开心，不是因为我可以炫耀，而是我可以得到那一点点的私人空间。
那时，形容我是关在笼里的小鸟一点也不为过。但，我的心是多么渴望飞出去看看 这世界，没人管，想做什么就做什么，不需要批准，不需要报告。这也是为什么从中学开始，我就已经知道朝九晚五的生活不适合我。我喜欢随性，我喜欢兴起时就 陶个电话找朋友出来叭啦，又或者是一个兴致勃勃就大伙儿驾车到云顶去吹风，就这种感觉，让我觉得很疯狂。我是我，我的生活不应该只是为别人而活，这也是为 什么我喜欢今天，因为这是我的星期天~！
所以我 现在的目标是解决我的问题。当我一解决,我要做的事就是：-
剪头发！--> 我现在的头发真让我自己都受不了，最重要的是，让我看来很没精神。
shopping!-->好久没好好地逛街了，没心情，没钱，也不喜欢那种没有任何一件适合的东西可以买的感觉。
party!-->这次我要冲出本地了，不再只是新山，还有吉隆坡，要冲出大马，我要去新加坡~!zs,my jb clubbing kaki.i noe u kinda lookin4tis.haha
喝 茶！-->朋友们，每次都拒绝你们热情的邀约真得很不好意思，没法出席大大小小的活动，婚宴也好，搬新家也好，出国前的饯别会也好，甚至普通的喝茶 及逛街也没办法。非常感激你们的体谅。我答应你们，我一定会找你们。当然少不了在新加坡的甘哥甘姐，你们都非常关心我，好久不见了，很想念呢！
yoga or kick boxing or...国际标准舞？！-->哈哈，瑜伽肯定会去学啦，其他的。。其实我的兴趣很广，再以自己的能力和时间定夺吧！
keep fit!-->自从做工以来，我的体重就直线上升，之前的心血都化成灰了，好不心痛哦。所以加油加油！
存钱！ -->现在我是名副其实的月光族，我不想的，绝对没有乱花钱，我发誓绝对没有！所以呢，一旦解决了问题，我就会开始存钱，我要看看这世界。在他方留下我的足迹，体验道地的生活。

希望这些都能在三十岁以前完成吧！

为了解决我的问题，我还有两个星期的时限，时间一到，我将与我久违的朋友见面。所以朋友们，如果十点半还看到我在线上，欢迎您赶我去睡觉，如果我和你打招呼，就别理我，哈哈！

Thought of the day

Its sunday again,my vr own Sunday. i can jz wake up whenever i feel it enuf. No alarm,no date, jz do watever i wish2do freely.mayb jz slacking, or sitting in front of pc for whole day. Bt who cares?It's my day~ ^_^
Actually din slp well yest.its been decades ago since my perfect+high quality beauty slp. Reason is either i've been awake by alarm clock cos need2go4work or had nightmare in the long long nite.Recently weather is so hot some more.Then y yest cant slp wel?cos had nightmare.Not a gd feelin aft wake up,smt in mind cant get rid of.Luckily get a fren call n give me some idea.10s my dear fren~u alw ther especially when i cant get out fr dilemma.tis is a beautiful day because of u,else im lost n moody again in tis rest day.Im glad frens r stil ther when u r alone.We suddenly tok bout horoscope.den he ask me wat is my zodiac,i ans im Leo.he said same wit his mum.A strong gal,sometimes need some1 2 manja wit,bt stil ll b strong till d end.Then i c myself, im glad tt at least im nt giving up on facing my own prob.I nvr believe on wat "they"said tt it ll nvr can b solve.i jz believe since it can be appear,it oso can b disappear. Compare to a fren of mine who facin same prob wit me,she totally gives up,not find any solution anymore.keep smoking,keep clubbing,keep drink alcohol.Im reali proud tt i hav faith on myself.
Y i can keep moving?cos i noe current situation is not wat i want.i want more.much more den now.im stil young,there is many things4me2explore,i need2go ard d world,i need to pursue my dreamz.im not going 2stick at here until end of my life.i want2get bac my happy stella.i could nvr forget d feelin during my convocation. i was extremely hapi,cos i've prove tt i ca!, especially for those who dun hav confident on me tt i can do tt. its ur lose for not believe on me.of cos,i ll nvr forget for those who alw support me o d while.i ll show u d result for not wastin ur effort!
But im not super gal all d while.sometimes i ll feel weak,i need a shoulder2rely on,i need listener to share my life.But, me,myself stil hav2stand up.Do myself,be myself,enjoy myself.

if you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


A fren of mine told me bout tis song. Love it since ever after it.